They couldn't find your body, they said.
I imagined that you escaped a life you didn't want to live. Planned your own death.
You thought the world was cruel. Too cruel to bring another human being into.
You lived every moment of your life in the fast lane. As if it would be your last.
Your need for speed is what killed you.
If it killed you.
I imagine you still on a deserted island. Living a life of solitude. Not even attempting to be rescued.
I don't know why.
Perhaps it's easier than accepting that you are gone.
So young. So much life in you when you left us.
Better to imagine you the king of a new world. Finally at peace? Or do you still tempt fate and defy death?
I sometimes wonder how it is that our lives became entwined. Was there some lesson for all of us in you.
My life was - is - richer for having you in it. Even if just a while.
You died too young, but that is how you will always be remembered.
Vital. Unrestrained. Strong. Proud.
A good friend.
I want you to know that your light shines still through those whose lives you touched. None of us as bright as you, but together in us you live on.
Wherever you are, may peace be with you, my dear friend.
Never goodbye, for you are always with me.
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This post was written in support of The Golden Sky Blogfest. Our task was to write about the loss of someone in our lives. I have lost many someones in my life. It felt good to write about 'G'. Not having closure made his death difficult. The other someones would be far more difficult for me to write about, and, though it's now been, in some cases, many years since they have passed, I'm just not ready. I am grateful to Elisabeth (author of The Golden Sky) for bringing us together in this way to remember, perhaps to grieve and to support one another.
I recently reviewed The Golden Sky and hosted a giveaway where two lucky winners each won a copy of Elisabeth's raw and emotional memoir. You can view that post here.
And as of today, you can enter to win an iPad2:
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